My Weight Loss Came With A Price

By this point you know my mother passed away in 2013.  It was an emotional struggle losing her and someone I long to speak to since.  When I hurt my back in January 2014 I was down 34 pounds and feeling good about it.  It seemed to be easier.  But, as it turned out weeks later I was diagnosed with hormonal Breast Cancer Stage IV.  That is why my back was hurting, it was in my bones.  To be specific, it was in my lower and upper spine, left shoulder, hips and right knee.  I have had radiation treatments in my spine and right knee, with possibility of more in the future.



Me / February 2012

Having been overweight to severely obese in my adult life, I needed to really buckle down and stop overeating for any reason at all.  Such as, celebrating the good and bad, because I wanted to, happy, sad, the list is long.  Eating for me was the only control I had in my life.  I was like anyone else, single living alone and really didn't like to cook.  I liked to bake and good at it.  Eating fast foods, processed foods along with my favorites of pasta and pizza, rarely eating fruits and vegetables.  Wrong carbohydrate cravings galore.  I could eat them everyday. 

Before I was diagnosed with Breast Cancer and at home, I had smaller portions and managed to lose a about 10 more pounds.  Once in the hospital, my diet change helped with my weight loss.  I was put on a schedule with portioned meals, fruit, vegetables and desert.  I thought I was overeating but it jumpstarted the carbohydrate cravings normally felt when starting a diet.  Having failed diet attempts, I gave up long ago from the carb cravings.  I wasn't able to walk while in the hospital, especially on my right leg for fear of breaking it and I was hurting on my left side.  I did all my physical therapy in my bed with leg raises, etc. to maintain some semblance of strength.  When I was released the first time to the skilled nursing and rehabilitation facility, down 56 pounds.

The same occurred through my second hospital stay and hip surgery.  When I entered the skilled nursing and rehabilitation facility in Largo, FL I lost nearly 60 pounds.  My clothes were hanging on me.  Since I had started physical therapy, it added to my weight loss and when released to go home, I was down another 22 pounds.  Since being home, I have a main healthy portion meal and then fruits, nuts or vegetables throughout the day.  I haven't felt a carbohydrate craving they way I used too.  Actually when I have a high concentration of carbohydrates (breads or pasta) in a daily diet I feel cranky and tired.  Go figure!

Me and Adele Brown / February 2015

I am happy to say that I'm now a size 16 pants / 14 top.  I have lost a total of 131 pounds since my mother died and can't believe what I see in the mirror at times.  I have donated half my wardrobe with more remaining in my closet that I can no longer wear.  Cannot believe how much money had been spent throughout the years on clothing that weren't worn or barely used.  Now I shop sparingly for the necessities as I continue on my diet.  I already have my size 14 pants and shorts for the end March.  Hoping my one year anniversary with breast cancer goes on without a hitch.  Keep me in your prayers :)
 
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I have setup a GoFundMe page for donations to help with my medical bills.  Your generosity is humbling and appreciated.

Be genuine, share yourself and have a fabulous day!  Susan (aka SuzzzyGal)